tarot readings for myself

𝙩𝙤 𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙠 𝙗𝙖𝙘𝙠 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙨𝙚𝙚 𝙝𝙤𝙬 𝙖𝙘𝙘𝙪𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙥𝙡𝙪𝙨 𝙨𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙙 𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙜𝙨 𝙖𝙩𝙩𝙖𝙘𝙝𝙚𝙙: 𝙣𝙤𝙧𝙢𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙄 𝙟𝙪𝙨𝙩 𝙥𝙪𝙩 𝙢𝙮 𝙝𝙪𝙜𝙚 10𝙠 𝙥𝙡𝙖𝙮𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩 𝙤𝙣 𝙨𝙝𝙪𝙛𝙛𝙡𝙚 𝙙𝙪𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙨𝙚𝙚 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙜𝙨 𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙜𝙝

April 19th 2026

I got a reading done today because I thought it would be nice to see what the cards would say about my personality to another reader... at first it was going well... too well

𝐦𝐲 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐟𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐫 𝐝𝐞𝐜𝐤:
The Magician
Five of Cups
The Hanged Man


𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙖𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚:
He said that I am clearly focused on manifesting and into my beliefs. I clearly believe in creating things with a higher power or whatever I believe in. He said that I also got the five of cups but on the tradional deck would be two ups still up however on his is three. He said I clearly been through alot in the past and that their is more to come to me in the future like community, family, and friends. He then pulled the hanged man and said that I have scarificed alot but I should change my view on those scarifices. Despite being hung, its involuntary or whatever.

and then they said "oh btw spirit has a quick message for you im going to rapid shoot cards real quick because it's important."

He didn't tell me what cards he pulled - He just started saying alot and btw I DIDNT GIVE THIS GUY ANY INFO ON ME AT ALL. DIDNT SAY I WAS SINGLE. DIDNT SAY I WAS GOING THROUGH ANYTHING. I ADDED NOTHING OKAY? AND THIS DUDE STARTED CLOCKING ME>?????

He was like essentially - You need to move on and let go. Your divine is here. You probably are trying to run from this but you cant. You should down an analyze everything that has happened recently and allow yourself to detox from it. The guy is complimentary like his energy is. I have sacrificed alot for this.

April 11th 2026

I have been having really strange dreams so I cleansed my deck and just did some basic reads.

𝐌𝐲 𝐆𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐄𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐠𝐲:
eight of cups
the hierophant reversed
five of wands
overseeing with the knight of pentacles

𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙙 𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙜:
Batter Up by Nelly

(Funny little tid bit about this song. My mom mentioned randomly that she wanted to go to a baseball game. I have never been in my entire life and we have never mentioned baseball ever really in my house. I guess, my brother's girlfriend reached out to my mom on the 14th and told her that they were going to a baseball game- and that they bought us tickets to go.... despite my mom not mentioning and me not mentioning this song. Also this was the first time I ever even heard this song so the fact that it was just chillin in my 10k spotify playlist is so uncanny anyways just wanted to add this tidbit.)

𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙖𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚:
walking away from a noncommittal defense and working towards something of value more than likely money $$$

𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙠𝙣𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩 𝙤𝙛 𝙥𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙘𝙡𝙚𝙨?
Judgement
Justice

𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙖𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚:
Karmic Justice, simple.

𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐦 𝐈 𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟?
Ten of Swords + Death
Knave of Swords + Three of Swords + Two of Cups
Ace of Swords + The World
Temperance Overseeing

𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙖𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚:
The worst is over - Their is no point of watching past situations because the door is entirely closed. Pretty much - Move on something better is coming.

April 6th 2026

this spread was pulled by my friend when we were in the middle of playing video games

𝐌𝐲 𝐆𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐄𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐠𝐲:
temperance
knight of wands
the hierophant

𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙖𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚:
he essentially said that I should be careful with jumping into a romantic relationship than advised me to meet people IRL if I can. (like if I date online than meet them IRL before committing.)

𝐚 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐨𝐧 𝐩𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐭

Essentially, every reader so far has told me that my next partner is going to be someone I have already met or known. And that, it will surprise the fuck out of me. Also, that its lead by god or the higher power because alot of the time - major arcanas keep popping up. So.... that's a thing.

April 4th 2026

I asked my friend who is a reader to do a spread on me and my next partner like who are they and who am I? I wanted to see what energy they picked up on.

𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐆𝐮𝐲:
𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙝𝙚 𝙞𝙨 𝙛𝙞𝙧𝙨𝙩 𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙙:
10 of pentacles reversed

𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙝𝙚 𝙞𝙨 𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙙 𝙤𝙣 𝙖 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙨𝙪𝙧𝙛𝙖𝙘𝙚 𝙡𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙡:
king of wands
six of swords reversed

𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙝𝙚 𝙞𝙨 𝙪𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙪𝙧𝙛𝙖𝙘𝙚:
knight of cups
5 of cups
10 of wands reversed

𝙄 𝙖𝙨𝙠𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙘𝙡𝙖𝙧𝙞𝙛𝙮 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙛𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙘𝙪𝙥𝙨:
Strength
Three of pentacles

𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙖𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚:
This man is someone who could be precieved as wealthy or on paper look like he is successful however, their is clearly more brewing at the bottom. He has charisma/he is clearly noticable (When I think of King of Wands type men- My mind immediately goes to like a men who post on social media or a man who is very known like he can go to a store and someone their would immediately know them.) I wouldn't say a social butterfly but definetly a man who stands out like attractive in a sense. Also, he could've gotten that success from an unconvinetal way. Depth wise - clearly a romantic because the knight of cups is a loverboy at heart. Clearly stressed tf out and Is holding grief about the fact that they made their success by having other people help them? Like this isnt a "self made man" but more like a "team worked together kind of man" and He holds that grief privately.

𝐀𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐌𝐞:
𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙞 𝙖𝙢 𝙛𝙞𝙧𝙨𝙩 𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙙:
Judgement Reversed
Emperor
𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙞 𝙖𝙢 𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙙 𝙤𝙣 𝙖 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 𝙨𝙪𝙧𝙛𝙖𝙘𝙚 𝙡𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙡:
8 of swords
three of cups
𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙞 𝙖𝙢 𝙪𝙣𝙙𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙨𝙪𝙧𝙛𝙖𝙘𝙚:
the hierophant reversed
6 of wands
4 of pentalces reversed

𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙖𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚:
Apparently... I come off judgemental as fuck and like I am a profectionist? AKA Intimidating bruh. I guess others see me as someone who has alot of self doubt or feels stuck/restricted in my own head but I do have ride or die energy when it comes to friends like people who are in my circle stay in my circle pretty much forever. I guess friendly but clearly stuck in a bind. Under the surface though - unorthidoxed and doesn't really want to be put into a box. Clearly I want some form of recognition or uh praise kink I guess. Also, Learning to like let go of things and being more open I guess too also could just be calling me poor lmao.

December 15th 2025

I went to a in person reader to get readings done. She didn't really say much except that I have been clearly working on myself. My ex is a narcissist and shitty. She also said that it was going to take awhile for anything romantic for me to happen because she did a runes reading. The runes pretty much just said someone is observing me, their is a huge break in time like seperation and that they will eventually tell me how they feel but god knows when. She also did a reading about this person I was inquiring about and essentially she said he wasn't ready for commitment and to stir clear from that at the time even if I wanted to pursue that. That was pretty much it, I kind of left with the same amount of information I went in with.

July 24th 2025

𝐌𝐲 𝐆𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐄𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐠𝐲:
three of pentacles
seven of cups on its side
two of wands on its side
the star
eight of cups reversed
five of swords
judgement
king of pentacles overseeing

𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙙 𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙜:
Party Monster by The Weekend

𝙢𝙮 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙖𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚:
I am currently running solo not working with the people around me focusing on my career and money over all, there is a bit of avoidance and not fully healing from what I need to be healing for I guess? but I am coming to a decision about what I want right now. Party Monster makes sense because although the weekend is thanking spirit for his current life: he is in desperation for someone who could actually match him and not just enable his terrible coping mechanism with the song ending about being paranoid which is kind of me feeling paranoid of my friends.

𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐚𝐦 𝐈 𝐫𝐞𝐟𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐲𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟?
the fool
seven of wands
the sun
king of cups
three of cups
knave of cups with the knight of cups overseeing

𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙙 𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙜:
gud vibrations by nghtmare
which is literally a song just repeating "give me those good vibrations" lmao

𝙢𝙮 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙖𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚:
that its okay to embody joy, fun, emotions and trusting myself outside of external forces. essentientally it's telling me to lean into my vulnerability rather than pushing it aside. avoidance might be a coping mechanism for being misunderstood and that's not always a bad thing but it is something that I need to realize that avoidance will never full close the gap. and im feeling this way because I dont feel aligned or seen/heard by my friends since they aren't on the same frequency which isn't a bad thing but its more about co existence than connection.

𝐦𝐲 𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐫𝐠𝐲 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐢𝐭 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞:
Judgement
Ace of Swords
Four of Wands
The World Reversed
Ace of Pentacles
Eight of Swords on it's side
Knave of Pentacles overseeing
Hidden at the bottom of the deck:
The Empress
Knave of Wands
Ten of Pentacles

𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙙 𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙜:
New Kind of Love by Imogen Heap

𝙢𝙮 𝙞𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙖𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚:
the main part of this spread represents some kind of soulful connection, but it's not even close to being done actually their is an opportunity there but its being held back by self restriction. it's just not ready. I am not ready lol. so the bottom of the deck is representing my subconscious wants: the empress is my indication card- I am seeking a long term connection and I clearly know what I want.

2022

I went to a in person reader to get readings done for my career which was about social media. She essentially said - I was going to have a slow start but eventually I will have multiple means of income. I won't be broke or a starving artist but I def will have a good amount of haters. At the time I was dating my ex and she told me that I was going to break up with him and meet someone else who would also be a creator as well but she didn't go in depth about the guy or how it would happen just that we eventually would probably meet at an event or something. She also told me a bunch of dates but then I kind of just blew her off because I didn't want to listen to the rest of the reading once she said I was going to break up with my ex lol.