dreams
At first, it was silly.
My brother did it so I followed his lead.
Plus, who could care less? It's all just some dreams.
Creepy, Crawly, Comfy, Cute.
I didn’t think much of what I would do…
if those dreams became true?
I wanted to become lucid.
I heard you could fly.
I wanted to see what was in my dreams sky.
So I wrote and I wrote.
But to my dismay, I started to see it…
messages directly to me.
Realistically it looked just like polaroids
with the moment of my future.
It was only for me and about me too.
Oh man, it was soo cool!
I felt like a prophet
I seen it all in my dreams
Look, it’s time for this scene…
Watching my life through a movie
But only curated with memories for me.
I couldn’t believe it and sometimes I would point
“this will happen next, he will light a joint.”
Bewildered the others, they could compare
“How did you read the future?”
I would laugh and they stared.
“I saw it in my dreams, this moment that’s here.”
And before I know it, the dreams started to come
Visions of text i’ve never seen
or conversations I didn’t hear until the next day
How did I have all this knowledge?
An ex once cheated on me
But how did I know?
It came in a dream.
The profiles the same, the text built around me.
Oh fuck- it was blurry in my dream.
But now I am looking at the real thing…
I thought it would stop there
I wouldn’t have to know a thing
Why are my dreams telling me about others…
What the fuck is happening to me?
I stumbled across another, similar to me.
And now he lives confined to my dreams.
Sometimes he speaks the most bewildering words,
Sometimes his ex’s come to visit me.
They say all these things I don’t know why?
But to my dismay, they never told a lie.
I told another and they scoffed asking “why”
but if I had to know, I don’t think I would see…
the future about you but never about me?
If my dreams were telling me the simplest truths about you…
why won’t my dreams tell me what this means for me?
How did you choose to take up a piece of my mind?
I told another and now it’s also where they reside.
But the future is never told about their soul.
Only specifically yours atleast thats for now...
Tell me how to make it stop.
Will I ever know?
or do you live in my dream state?
residing in the igloo covered with snow.
Even if he is not seen, his presence leaves a mark on me.
he sits and he waits
deciding when to appear and when to retreat.
a ghost manifesting when he chooses to be seen.
always hidden somewhere in my dream.
and when he is mad, he just won’t speak to me.
I doubt that you know either
so it feels like i’m stuck-
at a stalemate
but this is what I was shown…
you grabbed my cheeks and made me stare.
not letting me get away
making sure my attention doesn’t fade.
a reminder or a call
you have a claim on my dreamscape
and it feels like a fall
I don't think im ready to actually make
Not yet, not at all.