devotion

My phone stays dry
I don’t tend to reach out
but for him, i’ll ask about his day.
he never reaches out first
maybe the most likely reason…
I never cross his mind.
So does it make you feel strange
that you are always on my mind.

I was walking around the mall
to which I found some resemblance
an item that hissed your name
so I spent my last five
to take it home.
just to have something to look at
to spend all my time fixating on you

I laid in my bed and savaged the internet
just to get a better glimpse of you
trying to see where your at
if i could find you in a hidden post
or maybe your mothers facebook status
just to bare my eyes on you
and maybe get annoyed it’s without me

I spent the entire week
watching your favorite media,
which character reminds you of me?
Are they your favorite
or just a lame character in a show
I spent 132 hours not like I counted
but just to let you know
does it feel too intense

I went to a roller rink
sat on the sidelines
than wrote a story about us
holding hands while skating
not like we will ever go but
the idea of us together…
oh that would be better than
great white christmas snow

hey what’s up….
what are you doing tonight
not like i’m curious but
you are completely out of sight
and i’m missing you
and i want you to be entirely mine
mine.... mine..... mine

does it melt your heart or
make you absolutely afraid of mine?

does it creep you out or
give you the oomf to tangle me inside?

is my love a powerful drug or
a terrifying prison ill trap you inside?

it’s not desperation
no, it’s something more
something that I sink into
a feeling only you
can create for two.

don’t call it obsession
please understand I am aware
but it’s just quiet devotion
focused solely on you
I only spend 22 hours a day
thinking about you
that leaves me 2 hours in the day
see not everything is fully about you.